2012年3月2日 星期五

延讀木心:Of Envy


by Francis Bacon (1561-1626)

THERE be none of the affections, which have been noted to fascinate or bewitch, but love and envy. They both have vehement wishes; they frame themselves readily into imaginations and suggestions; and they come easily into the eye, especially upon the present of the objects; which are the points that conduce to fascination, if any such thing there be. We see likewise, the Scripture calleth envy an evil eye; and the astrologers, call the evil influences of the stars, evil aspects; so that still there seemeth to be acknowledged, in the act of envy, an ejaculation or irradiation of the eye. Nay, some have been so curious, as to note, that the times when the stroke or percussion of an envious eye doth most hurt, are when the party envied is beheld in glory or triumph; for that sets an edge upon envy: and besides, at such times the spirits of the person envied, do come forth most into the outward parts, and so meet the blow.
But leaving these curiosities (though not unworthy to be thought on, in fit place), we will handle, what persons are apt to envy others; what persons are most subject to be envied themselves; and what is the difference between public and private envy.
A man that hath no virtue in himself, ever envieth virtue in others. For men’s minds, will either feed upon their own good, or upon others’ evil; and who wanteth the one, will prey upon the other; and whoso is out of hope, to attain to another’s virtue, will seek to come at even hand, by depressing another’s fortune.
A man that is busy, and inquisitive, is commonly envious. For to know much of other men’s matters, cannot be because all that ado may concern his own estate; therefore it must needs be, that he taketh a kind of play-pleasure, in looking upon the fortunes of others. Neither can he, that mindeth but his own business, find much matter for envy. For envy is a gadding passion, and walketh the streets, and doth not keep home: Non est curiosus, quin idem sit malevolus.
Men of noble birth, are noted to be envious towards new men, when they rise. For the distance is altered, and it is like a deceit of the eye, that when others come on, they think themselves, go back.
Deformed persons, and eunuchs, and old men, and bastards, are envious. For he that cannot possibly mend his own case, will do what he can, to impair another’s; except these defects light upon a very brave, and heroical nature, which thinketh to make his natural wants part of his honor; in that it should be said, that an eunuch, or a lame man, did such great matters; affecting the honor of a miracle; as it was in Narses the eunuch, and Agesilaus and Tamberlanes, that were lame men.
The same is the case of men, that rise after calamities and misfortunes. For they are as men fallen out with the times; and think other men’s harms, a redemption of their own sufferings.
They that desire to excel in too many matters, out of levity and vain glory, are ever envious. For they cannot want work; it being impossible, but many, in some one of those things, should surpass them. Which was the character of Adrian the Emperor; that mortally envied poets, and painters, and artificers, in works wherein he had a vein to excel.
Lastly, near kinsfolks, and fellows in office, and those that have been bred together, are more apt to envy their equals, when they are raised. For it doth upbraid unto them their own fortunes, and pointeth at them, and cometh oftener into their remembrance, and incurreth likewise more into the note of others; and envy ever redoubleth from speech and fame. Cain’s envy was the more vile and malignant, towards his brother Abel, because when his sacrifice was better accepted, there was no body to look on. Thus much for those, that are apt to envy.
Concerning those that are more or less subject to envy: First, persons of eminent virtue, when they are advanced, are less envied. For their fortune seemeth , but due unto them; and no man envieth the payment of a debt, but rewards and liberality rather. Again, envy is ever joined with the comparing of a man’s self; and where there is no comparison, no envy; and therefore kings are not envied, but by kings. Nevertheless it is to be noted, that unworthy persons are most envied, at their first coming in, and afterwards overcome it better; whereas contrariwise, persons of worth and merit are most envied, when their fortune continueth long. For by that time, though their virtue be the same, yet it hath not the same lustre; for fresh men grow up that darken it.
Persons of noble blood, are less envied in their rising. For it seemeth but right done to their birth. Besides, there seemeth not much added to their fortune; and envy is as the sunbeams, that beat hotter upon a bank, or steep rising ground, than upon a flat. And for the same reason, those that are advanced by degrees, are less envied than those that are advanced suddenly and per saltum.
Those that have joined with their honor great travels, cares, or perils, are less subject to envy. For men think that they earn their honors hardly, and pity them sometimes; and pity ever healeth envy. Wherefore you shall observe, that the more deep and sober sort of politic persons, in their greataess, are ever bemoaning themselves, what a life they lead; chanting a quanta patimur! Not that they feel it so, but only to abate the edge of envy. But this is to be understood, of business that is laid upon men, and not such, as they call unto themselves. For nothing increaseth envy more, than an unnecessary and ambitious engrossing of business. And nothing doth extinguish envy more, than for a great person to preserve all other inferior officers, in their full lights and pre-eminences of their places. For by that means, there be so many screens between him and envy.
Above all, those are most subject to envy, which carry the greatness of their fortunes, in an insolent and proud manner; being never well, but while they are showing how great they are, either by outward pomp, or by triumphing over all opposition or competition; whereas wise men will rather do sacrifice to envy, in suffering themselves sometimes of purpose to be crossed, and overborne in things that do not much concern them. Notwithstanding, so much is true, that the carriage of greatness, in a plain and open manner (so it be without arrogancy and vain glory) doth draw less envy, than if it be in a more crafty and cunning fashion. For in that course, a man doth but disavow fortune; and seemeth to be conscious of his own want in worth; and doth but teach others, to envy him.
Lastly, to conclude this part; as we said in the beginning, that the act of envy had somewhat in it of witchcraft, so there is no other cure of envy, but the cure of witchcraft; and that is, to remove the lot (as they call it) and to lay it upon another. For which purpose, the wiser sort of great persons, bring in ever upon the stage somebody upon whom to derive the envy, that would come upon themselves; sometimes upon ministers and servants; sometimes upon colleagues and associates; and the like; and for that turn there are never wanting, some persons of violent and undertaking natures, who, so they may have power and business, will take it at any cost.
Now, to speak of public envy. There is yet some good in public envy, whereas in private, there is none. For public envy, is as an ostracism, that eclipseth men, when they grow too great. And therefore it is a bridle also to great ones, to keep them within bounds.
This envy, being in the Latin word invidia, goeth in the modern language, by the name of discontentment; of which we shall speak, in handling sedition. It is a disease, in a state, like to infection. For as infection spreadeth upon that which is sound, and tainteth it; so when envy is gotten once into a state, it traduceth even the best actions thereof, and turneth them into an ill odor. And therefore there is little won, by intermingling of plausible actions. For that doth argue but a weakness, and fear of envy, which hurteth so much the more, as it is likewise usual in infections; which if you fear them, you call them upon you.
This public envy, seemeth to beat chiefly upon principal officers or ministers, rather than upon kings, and estates themselves. But this is a sure rule, that if the envy upon the minister be great, when the cause of it in him is small; or if the envy be general, in a manner upon all the ministers of an estate; then the envy (though hidden) is truly upon the state itself. And so much of public envy or discontentment, and the difference thereof from private envy, which was handled in the first place.
We will add this in general, touching the affection of envy; that of all other affections, it is the most importune and continual. For of other affections, there is occasion given, but now and then; and therefore it was well said, Invidia festos dies non agit: for it is ever working upon some or other. And it is also noted, that love and envy do make a man pine, which other affections do not, because they are not so continual. It is also the vilest affection, and the most depraved; for which cause it is the proper attribute of the devil, who is called, the envious man, that soweth tares amongst the wheat by night; as it always cometh to pass, that envy worketh subtilly, and in the dark, and to the prejudice of good things, such as is the wheat.
Source: http://www.authorama.com/essays-of-francis-bacon-10.html

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2012年2月29日 星期三

讀木心之預習:問余何適

《瓊美卡隨想錄》

《圓滿》

弘一大师病危前手书之偈语,曰:
君子之交,其淡如水。执象而求,咫尺千里。
问余何适,廓尔忘言。花枝春满,天心月圆。
君子之交,其淡如水。应该解释为,君子之间的交往如水一般纯净,不带杂质。 
执象而求,咫尺千里。是说如果只看朋友交往的表面现象,好像看到了真实情况,实际上差得远了。 
问余何适,廓尔亡言。是说问我将到哪里去安身呢,前路广阔,我无言以对。 
花枝春满,天心月圆。但只见春满花开,皓月当空,一片宁静安详,那就是我的归处啊。 

2012年2月20日 星期一

過飽

吃得太飽果然不是一件好事,啊,應該説是非常糟糕的事情。

一開始,會覺得自己由食道到胃部都滿滿的塞滿了食物,甚至是滿到在喉嚨要溢出來的程度。感覺非常難受,肚子是擠塞的,然後仿佛腦袋也不過是肚子的一部份。至少整個人的思緒都被不適牽引到肚子裏,優先被消化。一段漫長的時間後,終於食物們開始被消化,由於份量實在是太多,消化過程產生的胃氣又被後來居上的食物擋住了舒展筋骨的路,靈魂被困。

唉,其實不過是我太沒用。一點點的不適實在沒什麽大不了,實在不應讓理性也淹沒其中。

唉,我的不適的確沒什麽大不了。食慾滿足過度必然的結果罷了。那些死在我口中的無數生命呢?它們的生命甚至不是為了滿足我生存,只是生活的一部份。我過分過多的吃,僅僅是生活中無數片段中的一部份。而且,即使我吃是為了充饑,為了生存,又如何呢?“嘿,對不起喔,為了活命,我務必要吃你啊,肉兒、菜兒、果兒……”這是什麽跟什麽?

我應該故作樂觀地説,只要僅爲滿足活命所需地吃,珍惜食物,不浪費,你就是一個好孩子了……生存也不過是種慾望,但難道聖人都該無欲無求嗎?摒棄慾望的都自大。眾生皆無欲無求,是要宇宙都回歸於“無”的狀態嗎?“無”是什麼?那現在所謂的“大自然”、“自然”又是什麽?什麽是適合?什麽是不當?標準在哪裏?道德又是什麽?我邊吃邊同情的屍體們,它們又是怎麽想的,會覺得我很殘酷嗎?

唉,要說為什麼我如此多慮?不過是希望動動腦筋有助消化罷了……

2012年1月27日 星期五

好想讀《奇諾之旅》

我需要假期,最少一個星期!好想重讀一遍《奇諾之旅》(1-13)啊!第14本我貌似沒有讀過呢(只有第14本的封面沒印象),第一次讀已經是(約)兩三年前的事了,最近開始非常想念它(書)。

然後,努力回想,我發現,自己幾乎什麽也想不起,既高興又不。高興的是,我又可以體驗一次《奇諾之旅》,而且還帶初嘗的新鮮感。不的原因更為簡單,閱讀的優先次序被我排得很後面,就是説我可以讀書(課外的)時間實在是非常有限……而,現在,我居然想(慢慢地)讀一共有十四本的《奇諾之旅》……

聽說人最佳的生活方式就是 "live like you're dying",如果真的如此活的話,我只想帶上一堆書到深山,然後沒日沒夜地讀;如果可活的日子長點,直接住在中央圖書館也不錯,然後沒夜沒日地讀……

什麽末代高考,要是快死了,誰在意……

2012年1月25日 星期三

摘錄:《空出來的房間》


《空出來的房間》
海倫·嘉娜——著,呂玉嬋——譯,商周出版
The Spare Room by Helen Garner
作者序:我們很容易把一個將死之人的難堪言行加以矯飾,而讓關於死亡的故事變得溫暖平和。為了不要落入這樣的窠臼,我在字裡行間必須冷酷約束自己的情感。

為人準備休眠的空間是種榮幸。——Elizabeth Jolley
……抑或者,這是心傷時的表現。—— Louise Glück

“也許她就是這樣才來這裡住的,也許她希望妳就是那個人。”
“哪個人?”
“告訴她,她快要死了的那個人。

2011年12月26日 星期一

《丈量世界》

為什麼他會這麼悲傷?或許是因為,他眼看母親在自己面前不斷逝去;因為,這個世界表現得太令他失望,一旦看清它的結構有多薄弱,看清那些瞎編的幻想有多膚淺,後面的自圓其說有多不入流,就叫人悲傷;因為,唯有歸因於神秘和籍助於遺望,才能承受這一切;因為,如果不靠睡覺來暫時跳脫日常現實,日子根本無法忍受。無法視而不見是一種悲傷,清醒也是一種悲傷。認清真相,可憐的巴特斯,只會帶來絕望。你知道為什麼嗎,巴特斯?因為時間一直在流逝。 —<<丈量世界>>丹尼斯•凱曼

2011年9月29日 星期四

風,來了!

在我千呼萬喚之下,八號風終於來了(和你千呼萬喚完全沒關係啦)

熱 帶 氣 旋 警 告

香港天文台在2011年09月29日04時40分發出之天氣報告
八 號 東 南 烈 風 或 暴 風 信 號 在 上 午 4 時 40 分 發 出 。

總之高興是也,希望風繼續吹!
然後,停課停課!

風繼續吹!


其實現在心情很複雜,滿懷希望地等停課,又要不斷告訴自己很可能如常要上學,未免失落。


聽,是風與萬物擦身而過的聲音!(難掩興奮之情)